insanity.

awesome. first day of school on September 8th.
i am sooooooooooo not ready for summer to end. D:
ehh.

errr anyways i have a few questions.

what do you do when you love someone with all of your heart and
they love you back, just as much. but
you've been with them before, ((twice))
and they've broken - no - shattered
your heart?
but this time feels different.
you know he hasn't changed, you know
his charm is just a tool used to get any girl.
he's had alot of those.
but you can feel that you actually, honestly,
love him. and
you really feel like he loves you.
cause he's never talked to you like that before
until now. and
you feel it.
you know it's what you need.
but your friends and/or family would think you're an idiot for going back.
you would be stupid to anyways...
just in case. and
you know you have to stay away.
he knows you do too.
it's for the best.
to keep you safe.
but you love him.

... why is the forbidden fruit always so damn sweet?


aanndd, what do you do when
theres this amazing guy
who says he loves you infinately
and he would do so much for you
and understands you
over the internet?
and you've shared so much with eachother...
and he's a safe, honest, all over
amazing guy. but,
here's the thing.
he's thousands of miles away.
he lives in england. ((but this also means,,
british accent...)) but he
would do anything to be with you. but
he's four years older than you.
and... he's done things just to please you,
he's so sweet. and perfect, and
wouldn't hurt you. ever.
but once again,,
england.
college.
*sigh*


and to top the dessert,,, these are both happening at the same time.
while i'm also trying to save one of my best friends from a path she dosen't need to stray upon.
while i'm trying to find a way to revive a lost frendship after two years.
while i'm trying to get used to being highly religious again.
while i'm dealing with judgement, budget, and probably
a slight loss of sanity.