OMGwow.

uhmmm... yeah. wow. its been a reeeeeeeeally long time since i last blogged. but boy do i have alot to talk about.
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okay. so. icky situation. theres this person. we'll call him joe. joe broke my heart. really bad. and it hurt. really bad. joe was very sweet and very yummy though. joe was quite charming and seductive. after joe and i went our seperate ways, about 3 or 4 months later (i dont know), joe said he still wanted to be friends. of course, thats so sweet, i felt the same way, blahblahblah. joe and i talked and talked and talked... and talked... over texting. alot. then he started flirting a bit. then more. then it started sounding like when we first liked eachother. which concerned me. things started getting um... interesting and because of my uncontrollable drive of lust, i started saying things out of impulse. we both realized we wanted to see eachother more again but didnt really want to be together. which is good because i promised myself i would never go back. and i didnt really feel any true emotional attraction to him like i had before. my friends would kill me, and his friends kinda just dont like the idea. so its a little like romeo and juliet but with only sex. except theres no sex involved...... oh my goodness, i am so utterly confused. stupid heart.
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another boy situation?
okay.
i am pretty much being stalked. theres this kid whos older than me. he probably thinks hes charming me, but trust me. hes not. no offense to him, but hes an ugly poser whos really not my type. he keeps coming to my locker, and its really sketchy. we were only texting for a few days. i admit, i might have said a few things i probably shouldnt have because i was hyper, but still. sketchy stalker ugly creepers- do not roll with me.
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yay more boy storiez.
ill put this one shorter than it should be.
two years ago i knew this kid. him and his best friend started hanging out with me and my best friend because we were all in the same classes. turns out he liked me, his friend liked my friend. they were both really sweet. my friend and his friend acted like forbidden lovers (lol) because they both liked eachother and knew it but didnt do anything about it. but he was going to ask her to a dance the next year, keep that in mind. (soooo elementary school haha). the kid still liked me, but i liked someone else sooooooooo much i didnt see it and didnt really care, which was stupid. on valentines day he made me a really crappy card, but it was cute. the day after, he made me an amazing card. it was to make up for the other one. it was the sweetest thing anyone had ever done for me. i was so struck, i didnt know what to do. speechless, blushing, gaping. stupid, stupid, stupid. one day a long while after, me and my friend started talking about him. i said how he was so sweet and amazing, but he just wasnt my type and a little immature (what did i know?) and i just liked this other kid wayyyyy too much. he overheard. he didnt talk to me for the rest of the day. i asked what was wrong, and if he heard what i said, but then he said no and got over it. i suppose. we spent the rest year getting better, as friends. it was great. he was the best guy friend i ever had. we even hung out a little over the summer.
the next year, after losing touch a bit, we went to middle school. we expected everything to be fine. but they didnt talk. to me nor my friend, not a word. one day, knowing me, i was walking to lunch totally out of it. i heard a faint "hey" as i was walking by, but i was spacing out (lol) so i didnt think much of it. once i sat down, i asked my friends if someone said "hi" to me when i came out of it. they said yes, that it was the boy. i freaked out. i yelled at them for not telling me (hahahahahahahaha). i was so embarassed that i had my friend go and tell him i was so sorry and that i was spacing out. he said "whatever" and nothing more. now (even though he dosent have very good hair... hahahha) hes soooo much more my type. and i miss him alot. and not a word has been said. two years apart makes a lifetime wasted. :c
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im awkward.
like really.
i embarass myself at the worst situatioins, fall legit EVERYWHERE and alwayyyyssssss say the wrong thing at the wrong time. i feel awkward standing, walking, running, singing, playing, jumping, and being infront of people in general. i am the definition of awkward. lol.
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amazingly fxcking amazing youtuber i discovered. Matthew Lush A.K.A. GayGod . he is amazing check him out. he is one of the hottest beings ive ever seen ... but hes gay :ccc oh well. ichliebematthewlush<3

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tomorrow is my last day of school. finally. 8th grade is next year. but it kinda stinks because the past five days have been rainy crappy cloudy forks, washington weather. and my pools not open. grrrrrrrrrrrrr. but im happy because i get to run around hugging people ^__^
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(sorry i had to get that out of my system...)
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