Not-so-happily-ever-after

Once upon a time there was a boy and a girl (i know, so clichè) they knew eachother for a little while, but what happened seemed like "love at first sight". they both sort of decided to make it official after seeing eachother for awhile.they "fell in love" they kissed after a few days, and more intamately in a few weeks. rushing things? definately not to him, but the girl was sort of new to relationships. she saw everything in him. he was gorgeous, funny, cute, sweet, and nevermind him being the perfect amount of reserved and touch-y. she loved kissing him. she could taste his mouth all day. she blushed when she even was looking at the back of his head. she knew from experience that this boy wasn't very loyal to his previous girlfriends. infact, she almost didn't agree to "going-out" with him because of that. but she couldn't resist that smile. at one point, she became paranoid from the boy hugging friends (who were girls) and she confronted him. he apologized, and she forgave him, even though her friends told her to decide these things more wisely. this happened a few times, in cases getting even worse such as slow dancing with these "friends" when she wasn't there. she just kept confronting, and forgiving. what an oblivious girl. the boy and the girl sort of distanced from eachother. the day before valentine's day, even though the girl always thought it was such a stupid excuse for a romantic holiday, the boy hadnt seen her all day. at the end of the day, they finnally met up. the boy told the girl that he was going to the movies with some of his..."friends". no "happy valentines day" no "sorry" much less asking if it bothered her. she almost cried herself to a puddle walking home alone that day. after a few days, the girl couldn't wait any longer. she embraced her emotions and threw them at the boy. she screamed, blamed, and cursed at him. she exploded her feelings all over the place. the whole time she was crying. hot tears of anger, power, pain. she couldnt believe she even did it. his response? ... "i'm sorry." no. never again. she cried herself to sleep night after night. she kept the situaton to herself. eventually, she got over herself, but her heart still sank when she passed him in the hall. finnally, she was done with him. completely over it. then she saw him with another girl. she wanted to smack him across the face. she didnt know wether to scream or cry. so she didn't do anything. she left it alone. she believed she was still in love with him, but hated him to much to admit it.



(((sound familiar?)))

random is happy

i want to be famous. yeah, i know, i've heard the song. "when i grow up... famous... star... boobies... be careful what you wish for..."... whatever. i don't know how i will, i've been aiming for acting, but its such a hard industry. singing//musician, i'm a little self-consious. okay, alot. writing, i'm not too creative with that kind of stuff. art, there are people who are better artists than me, and it's kind of hard to display work. sports, don't even think about it. ((wow i need confidence.)) i wish that somehow, i could just find something that i'm really good at then i would get discovered and become famous and people would know me and i wouldn't be like all the stars around me because i'm too freeekin' cool. haha. then i would probably create my own clothing//acessory//cosmetic line. or something of the sort. :]

yeahh. i dont know.

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boys say that girls are confusing. well, sometimes that's true, but its often the other way around as well. boys are all "i love you." or "please don't say 'i love you' because i'm too terrified or stupid to say it back" and sometimes they are like *i don't want to kiss you, are you kidding me?!* or *kiss you* or *i wanna f?%#&! make out. now.* or even *im hxrny, your ugly. lets f#@&!* and they only have like 5 emotions (most of the time). it's like ::

•happy •sad •mad •hxrny •..."yeah"

then again, girls arent so easy either. if a boy is no good, but for some reason the girl needs to feel accepted, she will do whatever she needs to to fulfill her boyfriends needs. sex, crime, drugs, alcohol, taking abuse, or on a lower scale pretending she loves him just to make him and herself happy, when she's probably not even happy. it's so wrong.

sometimes a girl or boy is lucky enough to find a signifigant other who is kind, fun, accepting, loving, caring, respectful, funny, not judging, not a whxre, in some great cases even hott, or any combination of those. those are the lucky ones. "happily ever after". yay.

and excuse the whole 'boy-girl' stuff. it could happen to anyone in any situation. i'm straight, but i support gays. if it makes you happy, follow your heart, and the more power to you. :]

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well those have been my thoughts for the past hour.

xoxo♥☺♪

life quoteee

when it comes to a point where you have to endure someone, it might not be a good idea to simply put up with the whole situation. or let’s say you feel like something is treating you unfairly, why would you just simply put up with it? and i know, a lot of people will stick around with them, no matter how that person will treat them. some will say “but i love him”, which makes me wonder what love is. how can you
love someone who doesn’t have anything good to offer to you?

this is from alex evans' blog. thing. its one of my favorite quotes. it made me realize what i was doing with myself. story. of . my. lifee. alex is my hero.

i really don't know what to write. i don't have really anything exciting to write about.

so yeah... more coming soooooooon. <3